dirtylibrarian

Monday, Jan 19th, 2009 -- You could reach creative heights today, but you'll need to channel your emotions in a positive direction, instead of allowing them to pull you into a swamp of complications. If you try to hold on to an old feeling or a worn-out habit, you'll only get bogged down in the mire. But if you are willing to let go of the past, then anything is possible. The choice is in your hands.

Though it is pouring rain outside, I'm excited both for my morning run (which a friend is coming over to meet me for) and my drive to Portland later today. 

I had the craziest dream this morning about being out on a run (hampered by a broom and pillow) and accidentally coming across the most awesome beautiful costume party ever.  Heavy metal gurus were chatting me up, pretty much every creative person I've ever admired was there dressed to the nines in elaborate costumes, and my high school band teacher was there (dressed completely normal and ignoring me).  I wasn't invited to this party.  I wasn't going to get to eat any of the food.  But I was honored just to get a glimpse of it.

It is pretty clear what this all means.  This weekend I'm heading down to Portland for Wordstock.  Some of my friends are unavailable to hang tonight as they are being honored at a special author party.  Me, I'm taking a creative writing workshop with Lynda Barry, which I am THRILLED about.  Though I hesitate to admit it, I have some deep secret hopes pinned on this weekend...that maybe it will help open up that side of me that is terrified to try and make the leap from someone who is very good at writing press releases and such, to someone who can commit to creating something meaningful, and real...from my heart, as a gift to others, to readers.  I'm a perfectionist in many ways, and the fear of failure runs deep in me.  But bit by bit I try to move forward.  Hopefully this weekend I'll find lots of inspiration.

My horoscope for the day seems to think this is all a good idea:

Friday, Nov 7th, 2008 -- Allowing yourself time to daydream today can open up possibilities for growth you hadn't previously considered. With the watery Pisces Moon in your 9th House of Big Ideas, you may even be contemplating going back to school or taking up a new subject of study. If you've been longing to travel, now is a good time to encourage your wanderlust. Stretch your horizons while you feel the inclination.

Portlanders...I hope to see you soon!  Not much free time this weekend, but we can fill it up!

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Correction:   I realized having Tuesday off and hurrying back for work Sunday night was silly.  I got Monday off, so I can take my time and really enjoy Portland, as is right.  Can't wait to see y'all.